ohh shitzz.
have been eating alot. ALOT.
also had been having late night suppers and super heavy dinners.
haiz.
last night had dumpling noodle + charsiao for dinner.
and almost two bowls of dessert.
okay. it was shared with mic.des.charm but i ate the most.
the worst part was that i wasnt even feeling full after that lah.
came back home and still had supper..
maybe due to that late night hana-kimi watching..
supper was ready mixed campbell soup and 2 slice bread w peanut butter.
shittt. its even heavier than my breakfast lah.

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:48 AM

I just realised that my week is totally packed pACked PACKED!!
and its not even packed with the stuff i planned to do..
haha. but i pretty much happy.
cos the schedule is seriously packed with chillingoutwithfrens sessions.
serious.

yesterday had work with Joywne and movie with mic.des.charm
today had haircut with cindy and then over to charms house
tomorrow is vivo with pEks-gang and then ***k with i.dunno.who.yet
thurs is A03 shopping!!
fri is eyeappoinment and then over to the saints.
sat is work with Joywne and the *** with the ^kachengs..
sun is church->lunch for charms->dinner for monkeybutt..
wooo. even im getting confused..
too packed..with all the things that i wanna do!!!!!
No work. No report. No ppt.
(work with Jowyne isnt work. Its Fun.)
therefore.. in conclusion..Absolutely nothing to worry about :)
lalalalalalalalalalalalalallalalalalalalala

soo cool.. the last time i was like that was.. never before..
i wanna live life like that. Totally aimlessly. haha.
only one problem now. I getting broke like that. aarrgghh.
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anyway. One more goodnews.
I HAVE GOTTEN PRISONBREAK SEASON2 1 -16.
heeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeee.
*smiling from ear to ear*
But. i decided to finish Hanakimi first. heehee.
and according to my tues schedule. i had a haircut with cindy.
its not bad woah..
had the job done at FarEast SUpercuts.
the problem now is..
how to style it back after i bathe.. hai :x
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anyway. I just wanted to say that the DOULOS thing would come true.
I want to go Taiwan!!!!
Doulos.DOulos.DOUlos.DOULos.DOULOs.DOULOS!!!
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what more can i wan in life other than...
eat.. sleeepp.. and enjoy life to the MAX!!


I'm loving it

[ .candice is revived. ] 1:00 AM

chatted with Guowei last night over msn.
hai. really miss them.
they are going to start work today after 10 days break.
and she was getting that monday-blues feeling
damn yu-men. haahaa.

YuLaoShi messaged me today. From China.
yeah. Guessed she heard about the chat i had with Guowei.

Finally went into the legendary VIVOcity.
haaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaa.
sorry. im still a shopaholic.
but. a poor shopaholic. yups.
And, i have decided.
If i ever had to do franchising.. again...
I would buy the whole CANDY EMPIRE franchise.
waaaahaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhaaaaaaaaa.
CANDY EMPIRE is like.. eternal bliss to me.
i think i could have spend hours in that shop.
okay. actually. i just spend eight plus dollars in that shop.
almost had no money to take bus back.
lucky my card still got 14 cents.

Thanks Jowyne for giving me a memorable day
even though all we did was packing :P

went to watch 'Just Follow Law' just now
its a must watch lah.
SUPer funny. haahaa.
(go watch yourself. not going to write here and spoil it)

Sorry Desiree. Forgot bring your present again.

got an unsuccessful letter from _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. sad :x

got a letter from Navy :S

dunno if LongJohn's was to salty for me or something..
getting kidney pains. hai.
even though i forgot to ake my med at 8 and took 10 instead..
but it shouldnt be the case..hmmm

Going shopping with the guRls on Thurs!!
Woo hoo!! Finally. Cant wait. going to start saving money.
TO SPEND ON THURSDAY!!! ;];];];];];]
hope everyone will be present though.

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Anyway. I forgot to Thank somebody.
my dearest friend. Cindy Lim.
my another lesbian baby.. haha.
even though we meet like.. once in a blue moon..
we are still very close.
and, i gotto admit that i sometimes forgot about her.
(sorry cindy) but..
she always appearing whenever im in some deep shit.
heeeeheheee. okay. whenever i need help. serious help.
Thanks girl!!
(still slowly enjoying your gummies. heehee)
ohhh. in case you are really reading this... your present is still with me!! come and collect it soon kays.. sorry forgot to bring to the hospital that time. Thanks for visiting me toooo!! and sorry for not really entertaining you that time. see you soon kays!!

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:48 PM

Give Thanks.
this entry is entirely to give thanks to the HolyOne.
I feel that i had to write this.
I really had to.

1. Thank God that i get to be in church again. St. Matthews to be specific.
I can never thank Him enough. I was truely madly deeply seriously glad to be able to walk up that small lane outside church to get into church. Thank you for keeping me alive and letting me come into your presence. To be able to everyone singing and praising his name again. Altogether. I would give up anything for it. Being able to be attending service again was like.. enough you know. like all i wanted in my life during this morning. Thank you Lord.

2. Thank God that i was *accepted back into the youth again.
Not that i was outcast or what. but i expected that i would be somewhat left alone, other than with mic and jowyne. yeah. due to my disappearance for 5-6 months. With all the new faces and stuff. yeah. Thank God. (hmmm..or izzit becos of my sweet..)

3. Thank God for giving me Michelle and Jowyne.
Both are very important people in my life. To be specific, my christian life. Due to my ignorance and deafness, the only way Im receiving His word/message/teachings are through them. They are like Postman (okay, Post women) from God. They will deliver His letter with the things He is trying to tell me and they make sure i get this registered mail. From God. Not only do i get it, I get to understand and apply it through them too. Thank you Lord. I cant imagine life without them.

4. Thank God for keeping me alive.
i think another 2-3 months in China would have caused me kidney damage. Thank God i came back on time. On time where everything can still be reversed. even though it was slightly late already. But still, Thank God.

5. Thank God for keeping me through the last week.
Last week was hectic. Lack of sleep. Rushing of report. Thank God for giving me a nice Liasion Officer and a big-tummy-but-also-nice external examiner. (though im not sure about the marks he give me). Yeah. but he was still nice looking. Thank You Lord.

Once again, I Thank You Lord.

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:52 PM

becoming sick.
not home-sick. not love-sick.
AO3-sick.
i realised that i really really miss my class lah.
like now. SERIOUSLY.
ohh mann..

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:49 PM

finally. It ended.
everything ended.
OIAP report and presentation.
the whole week have been like choing-ing.
literally the whole of the chinese new year.
looking at the report made me fustrated.
looking at the angbao money made it worse. haiz
the sleep i got for the 3 days before the ppt didnt even add up to 8hours.
on the first day of CNY, only slept at 7am and woke at 12 plus to go bainian.
didnt even sleep on the 3rd day.. did till 10am the next day.
and woke at 1plus..
the night before ppt, slept at 4plus and woke at 6.30am..
ended up shaking throughout the presentation.
even held the table a while to get a hold of myself.
and was still shaking after the ppt.
everything was over then. couldnt take it..
it sucks. never so nervous before..
maybe cos i didnt really prepare for it..
mentally and physically..

sleep last night was good. GOOD.
the whole week's of sleep catching up with me..
anyway.. when out with the pekpek gang last night :)
1 conclusion: the mao is with ben
can tell lor. sooo o-b-v-i-o-u-s. lalalalalalalalalala..

anyway.. A03 peeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when are we meeting up........
other than Tian's 21st bbq..
come on.... candice here missing all of you!!!
every single one..
even the guys okay..
even though i have already seen some like Bibi Tiff Hayati Tian..
but not this is not the AO3 that i know!!!
the AO3 that i know.. Everything the class also together one!!!!!!!
dun tell me that ''See you on Graduation Day '' shit..
dun tell me we are not even going to meet up???!!!!
come on.. where is all that eating-sushi-buffet and shopping??!!
i mean.. shopping at bugis or far east is not a bad idea right..
haizz........... where's everybody..............

.V.a.n.e.s.s.a.H.u.i.Y.i.n.g.C.a.l.i.s.t.a.H.a.y.a.t.i.T.i.f.f.a.n.y.B.i.b.i.

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:12 PM

The Retribution of Ba-Gua

First broke the curse.
Now living with the retribution.
A victim of the curse.
A super big headache.
Seems its here to stay.
Not gone even after tEn hours in Dreamland.

[ .candice is revived. ] 1:25 PM

i did it. i finally did it.
im not supposed to be happy/proud or anything.
but i did it.
I broke The Curse of the Ba-Gua.
Well. i managed not the touch it until today's dinner.
Not even at last night's prosperity pizza.
didnt even go near it. Surprisingly.
but ended up staring at the bagua for like 5 mins today..
before i admitted defeat.
dun blame me. HE was staring back at me too.
HE thought i wouldnt touch him. THOUGHT.
Lying on the plate looking juicy and stuff.
*grins*
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anyway, have been eating a hell lot during dinner these days.
really a lot. i think is about 2 or 3 times my sis's share.
noooo goooodddd

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:32 PM

okay. in tWo minutes time..


OOONNNEEEE.....



TTTWWWOOO.....



HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

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i was asked by my doctor..
drTHONG:'what are you going to do during the new year?'
mE:'eat?'
immediately, i got a informal lecture again about my diet.
try not to touch bagua.. and blah blah blah.
Nice. Chinese New Year w/out bagua.
Not totally. Just try.hmmm

and my new second home is not more going to be school soon.
Graduating soon. SOOoonn..
Tables are turning.
Going to be in and out of my new second home:NUH.
when there extra two times this week alone.
Going back on Thurs and Fri.
Going for my second round of treatment in march.
Luckily. Im free.
Got about thRee weeks before the weight's gonna drop and increase rapidly again.
three weeks to lose the current extra kilos...three weeks..
before the new ones come.
anyway. enjoy the new year still.
i shall start losing weight.. AFTER the new year
*grins*

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:55 PM

food food food..
everything i think about now is food.
and i actually roughly noe wad i will eat next.
it sucks.
i was quite surprised that after dinner last night..
i still had space for dessert.
and after dessert.. i still feel that space there.
luckily.. i didnt fill it up.
my tummy's getting all bloated up and stuff..
and face too.
can only hope that there wun be too much hair on my face.
and i hope that i wun look like moses lim..

ohhh prednisolone..
I HATE YOU!!

[ .candice is revived. ] 9:08 AM

some pictures i took at nuh. pics not really clear. using hp.
i know i was supposed to be resting and all.. but still..

my right hand with the name tag thing..

my left hand with that drip thing

foood there is not really bad if you take western instead of chinese..

my really messy hairstyle and a balloon sponsored by Eric chong

my nice comfy bed there..

well... i got the whole room to myself...

even had a toilet and a small corridor..

[ .candice is revived. ] 9:01 AM

i am so glad to be back.
back in singapore.
a week ago this time, i think im still at beijing. yeah
so nice to be back.

thanks to all the nice doctors who had to come see me.
especially Dr thong. she is a SUper nice doctor.
she calls to make sure im alright and stuff.
really really nice lady.
and she looks reallly young too.
maybe just hit 30??
yeah. and of cos.........................
she is Prof Yap's assistant.
got really big shoes to fill.
and very good qian-tu.
think i should thank her and prof yap by getting them a nice box of chocolates.

anyway, think im getting all fatter and stufff already.
the moon face is coming back.
and i woke up today cos i heard my mum say she bought beehoon.
its all food food food...
sorry. really wanted to keep the weight.
but it seems so difficult!!!!!!!!

[ .candice is revived. ] 8:53 AM

i want to apologise to everyone who i got them worried.
due to misunderstanding that i was in the ICU.
think my mum got all worried and all.
then, the Isolation room became the ICU.

[ .candice is revived. ] 11:02 AM

feeling really sick now.
getting all car sick and everything.
getting giddy and blah blah blah.
really hungry but wadever i eat tries to come out.
it sucks.
Professor Yap!!where are you!!!???

[ .candice is revived. ] 9:29 AM

really want to thank those who came to visit me.
was hospitalised on friday till today then got discharged.
due to illness acting up. not that i want it to be.
cos of the no-checkup-days in mainland china.
yups.
so in the end, results show that everything had gone real bad.
a routine checkup on friday with my doc turned into an immediate hospital admission.
but, i was actually quite enjoying myself there.
thanks to my doctor's commands: isolation room.
so i got a whole room to myself. one bed. one toilet. aircon.
and i was paying for a 6 bedded non aircon rate.
i was in a paediatrics ward. children ward.
not bad. my first meal was served in a winnie the pooh dish.
the dish even had the divider thing.
so that my meat and vege will not mix with my rice.
portions of food were of kiddy's share.
yeah. but the only thing is that there were no TV.
lucky i had prisonbreak in my harddisk.haha

anyway,i gained 1+ kg over in china. phew..
at least is not a 5 kg thing of something.
but i lost it over the first day in hospital.
got injected with some pee-ing solution.
that made me pee a lot lot over 2 hours.
then they woke me up to take my weight and i lost 3 kg.
was damn happy. and actually told the doc to inject more.
however, she said i would get dehydrated and stuff. yeah.
but, going to gain weight and get a puffy again.
all no thanks to mr steriods, prednisolone.
i'm now increased to 16 times wad im taking. haiz.
so i guess in a months time i will be like a Doremon.
face all round and stuff, going to get all hairy too. hais.

thanks to cindy michelle joywne jennifer caleb desiree RJ charmaine auntflorence unclebernard cheryl ericchong gina victor gina thomas nicholas jason matthew david simon alvin ilango..
sorry if i missed out any of your names. and thanks to every one in st matt's youth for praying for me. really appreciate it. and also special thanks to the girl who cried buckets for me. :]

[ .candice is revived. ] 7:29 PM

I'M BACK!!!!!!!
and i have seriously grown fatter.
not that i have stepped on the weighing machine.
but.. i have been chewing on my cheek.hai
yeah. i have been chewing on my cheek.ai
i think the fats on my cheek didnt grow outwards..
it grew inwards. yeah. so everytime i close my mouth..
i chew on my cheek..
and i moment i came out of the airport..
my whole body became sticky.
yuckssssssssssssssssssssssssss
i think 6 months of sweat finally burst out of my skin..

[ .candice is revived. ] 2:36 PM

anyway just want to thank people like..
Chen Xinyu (my shixiong)
Xie Ming Xia (shijie)
Shi Yu Li
Zhao Xiao Jing
Zhang Hong
Gong Zhong Feng
Zhang Xin
He Yan
Chen Yi Fei
Wang Bing
Ma Jing
Yu Yan Cheng
Li Xiang Ke
Li Jian Bo
Chen Yu
Lu Xian Ning(my xiao shixoing)
other people like..
Wang Lao Shi
GuoWei
Yu Lao Shi
Jiang Laoshi
and last of all...
Zhang Laoshi

For always looking out for us and taking super good care of us.
Special thanks to shijie, Yulaoshi and Guowei for giving me good happy memorable days.
and i will remember them the most...

[ .candice is revived. ] 1:11 AM

Finally had korean kao rou today.
i treated my beloved roommate and biao his gf and his roommate.
yeah. quite nice.
other than the fact that it had a lot of fatty meat.
anyway, just spend RM400+ today on gifts and some stuff for myself.
and both of my luggages are full!!!

Labels: ...kidneys rotting...

[ .candice is revived. ] 1:06 AM

just drank a hell lot..
bai jiu. yups. i think is 40% alcohol?
yeah. not that i want but...
tonight's dinner was with prof Zhang and Jiang.
prof Zhang is the most highest in this shiyanshi.
and frankly speaking, even though there was a lot of food..
i m not full. full by liquids. yes. by food. no.
i mean .. how to eat when Zhang sitting on your left and Jiang on your right?
(due to today, me and biao are the VIPs)
and they kept drinking baijiu. hai.
and they also kept 'jing-ing' alcohol to each other and us.
i think my kidneys are just going to corrode in my body
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Dearest Tiffany,
i went to the zoo just now and took a look at their pandas.
one panda. pathetic. only one panda.
pandas are considered their 'guo-bao' [national treasure]
but just now that panda was dirty.
like it didnt bath in weeks and there was shit stuck to its fur.
yeah. their so called national treasure.
took some photos of it but mostly is of its butt.
it kept facing his butt to us.

[ .candice is revived. ] 9:47 PM

just read some blogs and wad?!!!
some shit stuff are up again.
Come on. Stop it you people.
Everyone's graduating and lets just remain FRIENDS.
Dun you think its a much wiser choice?
And, why suddenly all the old stuff are being brought up again?
Why cant you all just close one eye and give way?
STOP IT ALRIGHT?!!!!
And,why are people not involved in this getting involved and getting others hurt?
if you all still want to argue and fight things out, go ahead.
Im not going to stop you nor am I going to take sides.
But, yes, i maybe closer to one side but I didnot support her decision then and she noes it.
So what? She's still my friend .
You two may fall out as friends and i may be slightly involved in this.
But let me tell you what.
I dun care what happens between you two. Its something i cant change.
However, both of you are still my friends and you noe it.

[ .candice is revived. ] 5:56 PM

im getting sick of eating good food.
yeah. you heard me right.
Good Food. Like restuarant style.
Just ate steamboat 2 nights ago.
then we ate at a restuarant for lunch and dinner yesterday.
tonight, another dinner restuarant style.
Last night, even felt disgustingly sick while looking at the menu.

[ .candice is revived. ] 5:31 PM